So I am a 36 year old ginger, I post stuff when i do its stuff i like. I have a daughter and a beautiful girlfriend. I like art, I make art, mostly sculpture. Ask A Ginger
So a lot has been happening round these parts. That’s why I haven’t been doing anything on here. I started back on a forum for vaping. Bunch of good people on there and it’s a lot of fun. Lots of info I’ve been spending time looking through.
My mom is sick. She has leukemia. And has been through one round of chemo an is going through her second now. This is really shitty and very sudden. I’ve been staying as positive as I can. More so as a defense mechanism than anything else. I love my mom she has always been amazing. And very selfless. This is very hard to process.
Kari and I have been having ups and downs again. This is wicked hard. I wish there was a fix everything button. The problem now is how long this has been going on, now when things fall back as they are going to do they feel like they did at the worst and just brings feelings back there. There has been so much ebb and flow for so long that anytime it feels like it’s sliding back it’s frightening. But I will continue to be patient and try and stay positive and proactive. I miss companionship. That’s what I feel is missing most, and I miss it. That feeling of goodness that excuses so much. I don’t know if it’s love or trust or togetherness or unity or what but because of everything and how Kari knows how to deal with her feelings she keeps distance. That’s where that companionship is for us. But she has to get there on her own. We are definitely better than we were. And she is learning and dealing with things in ways I never thought possible before.
My big yearly camping trip is coming up. And I can’t wait to be in fresh air with great friends. Fishing, drinking, hiking and relaxing. I can’t wait. I’m doing a ducky race again for the boys and a homie made us all something special. I’ll be making my usual day of food for everyone in the Dutch oven. Some breakfast followed by chili and rice and then a cobbler. Picked up some new shorts for the trip at an army navy store. Wore them today. They are super comfy. And two pair for just over $50.
Will have a full line of eliquid ready to deliver to my buddies shop next week. First time doing so much an making a full run of nicotine levels. Learned a lot. When I’m done I’ll have bottled 600+ bottles. If anyone that follows me vapes and would like to try send me a message and I’ll give you a great deal.
My daughter is awesome as always. Getting big and has noticeably become more aware and mindful. It’s truly unbelievable somedays. She is and will always be my number one everything. She is smart and funny and I can’t wait until we can have real conversations. I also can’t wait until we can move to real Legos and take bike rides together.
So that’s a fucking update.
Also to mealsandmeltdowns congrats you are awesome your new hubby seems awesome and you deserve a happy and healthy life together